A love story with God.

Matthew 6:21

"For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."

I used to think that loving God meant doing everything He expected of me: going to church, giving alms, praying, and doing good for others. Yet despite all that, I felt that my heart didn't truly belong to God. It was torn between God, my husband, my children, myself, and my own obligations. So how could I love God with all my heart? Matthew 22:37 says, "Jesus answered, 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.'" I knew that I didn't yet love God with all my heart, with all my soul, and certainly not with all my mind. My thoughts wandered day and night in every direction.

So I prayed to God for a long time, asking him to transform me so that my love for him would burn brightly. For Jesus Christ taught us in Matthew 7:7: “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and the door will be opened to you.” I was determined to fill God with love, to find him, and to see his face. I fasted, prayed, wept, sang hymns, cried out to God to find him, and waited patiently in silence, sometimes even in distress. At the end of this journey, in days of discouragement and beyond, I heard God’s voice saying to me, “Love of the Lord!” My joy was so great, greater than heaven and earth, and I felt a deep love I had never before felt for any person or thing. I persevered, this time waiting silently to relive that love that had overwhelmed me, and God called me again: “Love of the Eternal,” I answered: “My love, I hear you, speak and I will do it!”

This love gives me so much happiness and peace, and despite my flaws, I know that there is someone who loves me with a love that no human being could ever give me or fill my heart. Today I also feel a deep love for God. When I wake up in the morning, my first thought is God; after two hours of conversation, my only desire is to be alone with Him. I constantly long for His presence and His love. I thank God for allowing me this experience before my death.

Psalm 107:6: “In their distress they cried to the Lord, and he delivered them from their troubles.”

My sorrow was that I did not love God with all my strength, with all my soul and with all my mind; so I cried out to God for a long time, I persevered, I was determined to have this experience, and God answered me.

Our time on earth is limited; what do we truly possess that is important? Material things pass away, life is finite, and we will all die. Seek God with all your heart, love Him, work for His glory, and love one another.

Be blessed